My Heart is Steady

Today was probably one of the worst days of my life. Today I lost a little girl who was like a little sister and I failed God many times.... I let Him down. But then I realized.....

How can we let Him down if He's the one holding us up?

It's so true we're not holding Him up so how can we let Him down? He is holding us up! He is the Lord of all creation! Sometimes I'll look in the mirror and ask myself how can anyone look at me and not vomit?! but what I did right there was just basically insult God. Think of it like this you're in art class you make the most beautiful picture you've ever made in your life and someone who you love so much or your best friend says it looks horrible. That's a major insult and it upsets you. That's what you and I are doing to God when we call ourselves ugly.

When we sin against God and we don't want to do it again it sometimes hurts to not do it again because God is leading us away from the sin and Satan is pulling us sooo strongly towards it. It hurts you but you have no idea how much it hurts God. He made you and you are listening to His enemy. It's like you and your friends are hanging out and the bully comes and takes all your friends away. That's how God feels.

So to my title "My Heart is Steady" during my rough night I turned to a friend and she told me to say that 10 times out loud. But I didn't understand what it meant. So I asked her and she said.... "My heart is steady" means that God is holding your heart in His hands. it means that no matter what happens, HE IS HOLDING YOU. you can't be upside down when God is holding you right side up" Wow.... that's all I can say.... so today I'd like to promise the whole World and The Lord that I will now live for Him faithfully no more sinning, failing Him and stuff like that! I am a daughter of the one true God and I want to act like it!

Drew xoxo